Friday 30 September 2011

Fuck Buddy – the final message

I believe I have received the final message from my fuck buddy, turned boyfriend, turned ex-boyfriend, turned ex-fuck buddy – six days ago.

The message read that he was going against all his natural instincts but just wanted to let me know that he still loved me and that I was a very special guy. My reply was direct and simply asked “what do your natural instincts tell you?” – no reply was forthcoming…

Over the last six days I have been thinking less and less about my fuck buddy. It was extremely hard that weekend not to pick up the phone and tell my fuck buddy I was coming over. I felt isolated and melancholy.

I know it’s for the best, but I can’t help but feel saddened that my fuck buddy didn’t try hard enough to win my affections again. But then again – if he is a liar, has commitment and trust issues then winning my affections would necessitate acknowledging what he did. It would also make it harder for me to disconnect my emotions from him.

I made a commitment to myself to stop feeling sorry for myself and get on the band wagon again…

On Sunday I got a message from a mid 20s tradie – he was handsome – had a good body – I know Im easy on the eye but thought I had hit the jackpot with him. More on this night later…

On Monday I arranged for a total of six dates in six days…

·         Tuesday night – a nice guy for a coffee date

·         Wednesday night – a spanish guy that had just arrived in the city – just a mate :P

·         Thursday night – a married man (yes I will delve into the ethical issues on this one)

·         Friday – a nice guy that lives in the next suburb for drinks at mine

·         Saturday – A cute young guy for a coffee date

·         Sunday – Meet number 2 with the tradie…

So by Monday I hope to be shattered and have a few guys to fuck around with to keep my mind off my fuck buddy. I will of course update my blog with each entry – when I have time :P

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